Self-Mastery with God’s Guidance
When it feels as though your world is over — when there isn’t an ounce of willpower left to survive the day, let alone face tomorrow — when you have fallen so spiritually low that, for the first time in your life, you find yourself opening your heart to the heavens above and wholeheartedly praying to the Almighty Himself:
“Welcome” to rock-bottom’s basement floor.
In the midst of the relentless intrusions into my life, I was lying in bed when I reached my arms towards the ceiling, my palms facing upward as I called out to Him. I tried to force the words through hyperventilating cries of brokenness and desperate gasps for air, but all that escaped were fragmented whimpers and sporadic yelps: “I can’t take it anymore — please help me. I have no one. I am begging You… please!!”
I am unsure whether I addressed Him as “God.” I only remember pleading through tears, nearing my breaking point — unable to see a way out of the profoundly devastating situation as I exhausted all the tax-funded resources that I knew of at the time.
Tucked beneath my soft fluffy blankets in the fetal position, my entire body ached from the emotional implosion that had upended my life when, out of nowhere, an euphoric sense of comfort and relief came over me, causing me to laugh uncontrollably.
For a brief moment, the crushing weight of dread I had been carrying, simply… disappeared. A small flicker of hope began pulsing through my being — it was an unrelenting determination to continue onwards, to persevere through and overcome the vile tribulations that blew my life apart into unidentifiable scraps. Somehow, I had been granted the strength and courage to keep going. It was as if then and still feels now, that I have His support.
From then on, a spark was lit within me to discover the path towards serenity, so that I may meet my dream, future self. It was the journey that guided me to “Self-Mastery with God’s Guidance.”
Little by little, I truly seek Him so that I can truly find myself — to become immovably grounded in His righteous empowerment — and to discover my purpose in life.
Here are the values that guide me in cultivating a balanced and meaningful life:
To embody self-love and respect for myself and others; establish personal boundaries; practice even-handedness and ethical honesty; and embrace maturity. To remain firm in my belief in never shaming, judging or gossiping about anyone; foster faith while affirming stability; maintain level-headedness with self-evaluation at the forefront; and apply self-reflected truths and life lessons to every aspect of my life.
I definitely spit positive vibes and kindness to all, but I will never be perfect, even with my exhausted efforts. There will be days when my stubbornness and, yes — this wee-wittle ego — get the best of me. Irregardless, I vow to make things right whenever I betray my better judgment.
There will always be setbacks, difficulties and hardships — for all of us. The key is to consciously remind ourselves that, no matter what comes, our lives can still unfold brilliantly on point — if — we refuse to give up. What once appeared inauspicious may one day reveal its meaning: the silver lining will become unmistakably clear when it is our time to understand what we could not see before.
With a little faith and a shit-ton of effort… we can turn the unimaginable into something f*cking extraordinary.
And yes, I ask God everyday to forgive my potty mouth.
